I noe.....i m suc a pessimist.....i m alwys so negative.....it hurts alot bein separated 4m my bestest best fwen&worst is tt d subjects of d clas i m posted 2 doesnt hav ny subject i hav alot of interest in.......i m so obsess wif them,yet i cant study them;u noe hw painful tt is?

I noe my maths suc,bu i stil wan 2 do A maths,i dun wan 2 do subjects tt i dun reali lyk(D&T,art,hme ec)jus bcuz i hav 2,but i wan 2 do tings i hav luvd alot&hav so muc interest in........my dream is 2 study A maths&Pure Science....i dun c y i shuld b 4ced 2 study smth not of muc interest 2 mi...y cant d sch jus giv mi jus 1 dam freakin chance?its not tt i nv did my bes or i dun luv 2 study ryte?in fact i m so obsess wif it;i noe i hav bn lazy&slackin alot but i stil wan 2 study wat i wan,not smth i dun wan 2;cant ny1 understand mi?

&if i study smth i dun lyk&get a job i dun lyk in the future,who's goin 2 b responsible?its def not mi cuz i wan 2 study A maths&Pure Scince but not evn given a chance........

Fact is,i wan 2 b a scientist in d feild of biology wen i grow up.....its a dream since primary sch..

&on wat was written on Hetty's blog,i hav 2 say i m sry but i jus wished tt they hav nv dne it cuz the scar left on mi cn nv b erased....

Heres a song to rep my sorrow...



Doubt&Trust Lyrics

owari mo miezu hashiri nukeru
yasuragi wa tooku sugata mo naku

kodoku wo fuujikomete
tozashikakeru manazashi

habataku mono o mukaeru sora
shihaisareru no o osoreyashinai

akogareru mabayusa wa
subete o kaeru tame ni

dare mo yurusazu ni
doko he yukeru darou?

hikari no moto Yami wa umare
shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
kokoro o tsukisasu
fureta yoru o koorasete mo
yume to iu yokubou no kage o
yobitsuzukeru

kimi no tsumi to itami o
shinjite iku

zenbu hoshii to sasayaku koe
nakushiteku koto ni oitsukezu ni

saki made motomeru yubi
tsumetasa ni kizukanai

ai o nokosu nara
tometa kuchibiru ni

hikari dake ga yami o unde
nukumori wa utagai kasanete
tadoritsuku omoi
kawasu mune ni chikau mono ga
eien no kizu de kamawanai
kizami tsukete

toki ni kizuku hazama ni
kieru mae ni

hikari no moto yami wa umare
shinjitsu wa itsuwari ni yureru
kokoro o tsukisasu
fureta yoru o koorasete mo
yume to iu yokubou no kage o
yobitsudukeru

Kimi no tsumi to itami o
Shinjite iku