Hi there peeps..its been quite a long tym since i reali sat down&reali blogged....I just duno why during&after the trip to the City Gallery for learning journey I felt reali stupid&fustrated....There could be many reasons for the way I felt...bt the most prominent was that I felt kinda used by others...
On the trip there itself there were many incidents that others showed favourtism&some sort of acting...its lyk u wana borrow sumthing from sumone&the truth is he or she doesn't wan to lend u bt they say they wana used it at that point in tym&jus after u ask,sumone else comes along,sumone else thats more good-looking,more kind or hot or sumthing,sumthing that they are better in then u or they hav a certain aspect whom u lack of,bt the most common,has NEVER done anything wrong to them,asks to borrow the item u wanted to borrow a lil while ago bt failed to do so..surprize,surprize!The item was lended to that person,evn when the owner him/herself wanted to use it at first....
Well,so the day continued...den i felt pretty lonely...lyk an empty shell...its so hollow...the feeling was just to unbearable...bt I just couldn't let the enemy noe I was at that tym....
Den,back to school we go^^....bt i wasn't ^^ on the way back..diao,mayb i was Emo den...den i just kept thinking...y?y are they treating mi lyk dis?.......didn't get the answer,so I just kept quiet all the way.....
When we finally touch PRCS ground....sumthing else happened that made mi more fustrated...den Miss Low cme by&i dcided i needed to tok to sumone so I asked Miss Low if I culd tok 2 her;she agreed..I tld her what happened&surprizingly,she said i shuld b happy wif wat i hav nw...she tld y ppl treat others the way they do..&the truth Miss Low said was that her situation was far more worse than mine...I guess she understands how i felt..Thanks,Miss Low:)..
That night,at home,I sat down at thought of what hav i done to deserve such treatment..Finally i found the answer...it was cuz of the way I treated them in the past....well,i demanded to much,never spare a tot for them...always picking fights.insulting them when i didn't get what I wanted...etc....so that's why I say I deserve such treatment,i couldn't blame them...more importantly,I dcided,not to b make use by them in future...for various reasons...friends,information on a particular topic,etc..bt i still have to say it..Sorry,peeps for wat I have done in the past....
Bt if they treat mi as real friends,i wun mind..:)..even if u made it so clear that we could nv b friends,i dun care cuz i will always b waiting for ur answer:yes,even if u keep saying no,i wun giv up,gona hang on that thin strand of hope..thuo i may hate u till den,gona wait...guess i m gona suffer for 1 1/2 years more.....&to the gal i lyk whom i m not sure of my feelings yet....i will come clean to u,when i m sure,by Graduation Nite~
Here's my thanks to those who comforted me when I was feeling down,wether by chatting wif mi to take the fustration off my mind or just simply comforting mi..U have my thanks:Beryl,Nurli,Yong Jin&most importantly,Miss Low....
Ciao~
P.S.This post is meant to express how i feel,not meant to insult anyone,if u think so otherwise,then I can't do anything...
Jus changed my music codes 2day.......lazy larhs,bt i wil b changing the template yt again!!!cuz yj's at my huse,no tym,must play play!!!!
oya,in my nex post,i wil b posting a picture that shows the terrible defeat by three morons from my Pachebel server's family....go figure out who they are...diao....paiseh,didnt expect to lose th duel hor!!!!
Rosario Vampire so sad...waitin for second season...........jus dcided wat name i m gona change my name too yay!nyways....if i m gay,i wun b lyking a gal in my class now....diao...shes........if u tink i m gona tel u who she is,dream on,its for mi to noe&u to find out!hahaz!u cn ask mi if u wan..bt tt dpends...on who u are...
nyways,ppl's been asking mi questions...nvm i wil b bac later to blog....haz..........
Watashi wa Rayne-kun~.